Had an amazing weekend. Happy birthday to the boyfriend.
Please help me be happy.
Can the tears listen and stop flowing like there is no tomorrow?
Can the brain just shut up and stop thinking bad things like this is not bad enough?
I love it when you hold my hand while on the bike. I love it when you look at me and think im cute although i know for sure im not. I love it when you put your arms around my shoulders like telling me i have nothing to worry about because you will be there. I love it when you call from work and catch up with my day. I love the way you cuddle me to sleep. I love the way you hug me from behind. I love the way you say “i love you” I love your stupid jokes. I love you.
Lost in the hectic work everyday all i want to do is not spend the rest of the remaining time thinking about work. But i cannot. Its too big a part of my life to not think or care.
I want to do something. I want to be different from the crowd of them. I want to stand out in the right way but i am doubting my ability to do that. Should i just be contented with where i am and what im getting? Can i live life the way it is?