There is really nothing to be envious about other people’s relationship. Everyone functions differently. to some, they are lucky to have found a partner with the same love language. Loving become so much less of a problem. unfortunately or fortunately, i dont have someone of the same love language. and i may have quite a hard time trying to cope with that. In a relationship with 2...
cus i know you are tired of listening to my rants and grievances. i have to shut up. i just have to. but who really will listen to me. listen to me without arguing. listen to me and comfort. listen to me and tell me im still the best just do that will you. i did a lot i believe. i did a lot for you. i dont know if you know how much i have been through. maybe not a lot. but enough emotional and...
Never mind im feeling lousy from a bad flu. Never mind im feeling tired after 10 hours of night shift on top of the flu. Never mind.
So much has changed since maybe 2 years ago. so much of me has changed at least. i looked back into images i took a few years back, i was proud of who i was. i see the difference in me back then and now. My smiles were genuine, i live every day to the way i like it, i enjoyed life, basically i lived, for myself. Right now, i cant same the same. i dont know what is it has changed. Commitments to...
and. so we decided to have Nonya food for dinner. Stalked 2 men down the street into this Nonya restaurant. Apparently the only restaurant opened that is more then half filled with people. So we assumed it has to have slightly better food to draw the crowd. Indeed, it wasnt so bad. Not exactly pricey. Comparable to Sgp. food was on the whole good. and then, we went out to Jonkers Walk....
so. we made a short trip to malacca! just 2 days and a night. short but sweet. little getaway from the routine. On board luxury tour coach. This trip was by groupon. hotel and 2 way coach for 98 bucks. all was good. initially was quite apprehensive about groupons. But hatten hotel was good. Big. Clean. Nice. Coach had a guide who was very friendly and informative. The last time i have been to...
Done with first night. Uneventful but busy night. No time for food. Prawn mee at macpherson kept popping into my mind. It’s high time to pay a visit! Looking forward to the 2nd night because after that, I will be hiatus from work for 4 days! Short but I make do with what I can get. Goodnight .
Sweet dreams. Not.
3rd time in probably the past month I had nightmares so vivid, I woke up in cold sweat shivering, even afraid to move an inch, while trying to figure out if I was dreaming or if it actually happened. Never felt so afraid. The nightmares were so real that I could remember every detail of it. It’s like how the usual dreams sometimes doesn’t make sense but these dreams are so true to reality,...
There is always a but. But we are all happy. I will never see it in the same light. Ever again.
so i sat there thinking of what exactly can i blog about. and nothing. things were either too insignificant or too depressing if we were to dwell on it. Life has reached sort of a saturation point for me. i dont know. feels like it. maybe work has been taking up so much of me or life has been mundane. its not a bad thing nor is it like the best. just you know..
up in the clouds.
First Genting trip with the boyfriend. i have been to genting like a billion times. up till today, it hasnt changed for a bit. just random shops shutting down and new shops coming up. Navigating wasnt a problem. Genting is really just a place to lepak. A little adrenaline rush as you sit at the tables in the casino. or game enough for some really old school rollercoster. Other than that, really....
Chan chi Liling Kha!
In a bat of an eyelid, i am now back in sunny island and soon be back to the same old routine yet again. Time flies when you are having fun. i had fun in Bangkok. its been a while since i went! Bangkok has changed so much. my bkk 2012 travel buddies. by the time we reached bkk is was dark at night. we just wanted to check in and then have dinner/supper. to our surprise, bangkok streets were...
On an adventure we go.
Back from Land of thousand smiles. Sai nook mak mak! Now off to Genting with bf! :D Life cannot get any better for now!
Every year. on 端午节 its grandma’s birthday. This year, everyone was present with new member, Little CJ. 祝外婆生日快乐， 身体健康。
A day at the children little museum It was a very small place with interesting things. expect to spend 30minutes there. I had this. and i still remember my favourite piece of block which i always use when i build something out of this. Old grumpy uncle at drinks stall asking you what you want. Welcome to the barber shop. Its an interesting place although small. just a little shop...
The bike Alex bought for himself and for me as a birthday gift. I had to make a choice between a prada or chanel wallet and this. i so badly wanted the former BUT you know this could be something lifechanging. so yea. Super excited about this. :) I took like close to an hour trying to balance myself and start pedaling outside the shop. i was a joke. Like i totally forgot how to cycle. Road...
Going to work everyday is a battle. Battle against time. So many things to do. So little time. Is it even physically possible. Or is it just me.
Yet another awesome weekend.
so. i made it through the 7 non stop work week to the weekends. and then again in the blink of eye, work is starting yet again, tmr. damn it. really. Kind friends at ward gave me a birthday surprise with a nice birthday cake. havent had a birthday cake to myself for as long as i could remember. :X and also got to know that day that my preceptor was going to leave the ward to another clinic. so...
Sick of going to work. Sick of going to work knowing that it is going to be another crazy race against time. Abd today is only the 5th working day. 2 more to go. And today have not even started. :( mentally drained. How to then perform at work? Im so freaking tired. Time for break yet? :(
and its the weekend again. can never get enough of weekends. without work that is. having to work shift is sad. sometimes weekends are burn. just like how the coming weekend will be. so weekend off, be it just a day, is something i really really really look forward to. (: off day on a weekday was spent with parents, da jie and CJ. (: CJ and his favourite 小姨. ：D then it was just work. till...
this week has been unexpected. felt like i went on a long leave. but all is good. Last Sunday. after night shift. i started falling sick. but it just felt like your usual cold/flu. a little temperature wouldnt kill me anyway so i see a doctor and went out anyway. :x why because it was an important meeting. i wanted to set up one of my best friend with Alex’s friend. and it happened. i hope...
Does it really have to be this complicated?
I just tell myself i dont need you. And it will work.
Finally. Something to look forward to. Bangkok on the 14th july! Annual leave you better not screw up!
Can i have some good news or anything at all to look forward to already. Life sucks. Now.
Its like there isnt enough to worry or give a damn about already. As much as i dont want to care, i just cannot. How i wish i can be like her, not be serious and all and when things like this happens, no one will hold you for it because well, people assume you dont understand. Ignorance is bliss aint it? Dont want to shirk responsiblities but im only 4 years older than he is, no one is gona really...
I feel fucking incompetent. No. Correct that. I AM fucking incompetent. Fml.
With such a workload, how to remember everything. I cannot. And its frustrating. Nobody knows what happens on the ground. If its an uneventful day, okay. You done your job, no regconition whatsoever. Too bad your side was packed with patients and many many problems just your luck. There is no pat on shoulder to encourage you. Nope. Only until something was spotted missing or not done or done...
And i just heard of another failed relationship of 6 years. Took 6 years to realise they werent meant for each other. Im sure at some point of that relationship they thought they were meant for each other. So how can anyone be sure at all. Feelings deceive.
I screwed it up. ): damn work.
The Adventure. of food and everything nice.
Recounting my leave. Just so as to make them look like its worth the time. Tuesday night. watched Hunger games with ZYL. Good show. not a bad show. First time watching a midnight movie. :X can be quite fun. Only reached home at like 5am. Wednesday. Met Weiling for brunch at group therapy. Missed my hair appointment. Caught up with Agnes. had dinner and done fair bit of shopping. :D then met up...
Happy 1st year (:
31st March 2012 marks our 12th month together. Also otherwise known as the first year anniversary. Time really flies. It didnt feel like that long time but it is. 12 months and hopefully going strong. Couldnt go back to where we started since caramel cafe is closed for business. ): but Alex had other plans. Mr Alex presenting flowers for the 2nd time! Flowers are love hate thing. I love flowers...
Time tells. We all know.
I just cannot.
Maybe im not good at this. Maybe that wasnt enough. All these frustrations. I need to stop. Why is this so hard.
Awesome weekend. or not.
It was an looong an awesome weekend. Friday was spent out shopping with ChengJun and his mum and papa at orchard. I love how dajie and i have like extra company for shopping now. other than the fact that every 2-3 hours or so this company will demand for food with his uber loud cries but all is cool. he is by far quite the good shopper. hehe. Saturday was Ginger’s see and be seen night...